“Surely”, I want to say, “if I'm to be really quite frank I must say that I have something which nobody has”. – But who's I? – Hell! I don't express myself properly but there's something you can't deny that there is my personal experience & that this in a most important sense has no neighbour. – But you don't mean by that that it happens to be alone but that its grammatical position is that of having no neighbour.
     “But somehow our language doesn't bring it out, that there is something unique namely real present experience, & do you just wish to advise me to resign myself to that?”